About time to update “Who am I?”

Most people finding this blog I’ll assume know me. But today it’s actually not unlikely that you barely know me so let me introduce myself as I am now.

My name is Oskar Vikström and I am now a man of thirty something years. I am adopted from Brazil but I relate more to Sweden and Japan than to any other country in the world. I don’t really feel a nationality per se, but if I were to claim anything I would call myself Swedish, but definitely not Brazilian, I unfortunately dislike most things about that country.

I am quite a strange and in some aspect different kind of person and I’ve come to accept I’m not the baseline for normal. I defined myself as radical when I was younger but I would just say that my personality today is unashamed and brash. Ten years ago this was not a problem but today, and especially in Sweden, you need to temper your opinions since everyone has opinions about stuff and are ready to lynch people who aren’t political correct.

I do not care about political correctness. The society is forcing people to behave, think and in some extent feel in certain ways and today it’s just become a more assertive process in which you’ll get loud screams from people unless you adapt to this. I just try to avoid it all since I have no interest in participating in either side of the opinions. I find both sides of the arguments overly exaggerated and I find it also overly complicated how everything should adapt to this. So I’ll just try to avoid it all in all. So this is the last I’ll say about that.

Two topics I despise and also try to avoid, related to this, is Politics and Religion. I use it in role-playing games and books and such, but when it comes to the reality I avoid it. I don’t believe a word anyone claiming to be politically active says and I don’t care either way. The world is corrupt and politics is the same. It is unavoidable. Just don’t ask me to come with opinions in this matter. And if you can’t stand a person not wanting to be part of politics, well, I’m sorry to see you go. Religion is the same thing. I do not consider myself religious and I do not believe in a god or anything above me other than forces such as gravity, and such. So if I would call anything I believe religious it would be that I believe in physics and that the universe has logical forces and rules that governs existence. Everything else is not for me.

So my only opinion about these two topics is as follows:
Most of all religious/political people cannot discuss and present their ideas in such a way that they make sense to everyone. It’s often very aggressive and one-sided arguments with the express goal of converting or forcing the other party to yield to their own side. They have a lot of emotions in what they say and believe which often leads to mostly a battle of who can make the other one look most stupid and loose their temper. Everybody lies¹ just to make themselves look right. And even those more sensible than this, only knows a limited amount of information in their topic and haven’t truly learned about everything from every possible side. Because you always have ulterior motive to make your party/religion be the best. I despise this behavior and I have no interest in discussing it either since I have no possibility of bringing anything positive to that cesspool of possible conflicts and bad emotional outbreaks.

SO, who am I now? What has changed since the last update 2008-03-29, TWELVE years ago?

Short answer, a shit ton! It is too much to put into just this segment but I will try to condense this.

I am more calculated, slower to react and less passionate about my opinions than before. I am more private and also more experienced than before. I’ve been through one devastating relationship that forced me to stop with the blog² and almost stopped role-playing completely. I’ve had four girlfriends, been to Japan a total of ten times, met a lot of new people, and met my three new favorite people in the world, Philipp Kuinke, Anton Linbäck and Carl-Philip Riggo Andersson. I now am a board game geek of epic proportions and have even started a failed enterprise within this new favorite subject as well.

I’ve been homeless, moved three times, gotten cats, had three cars, been to three new countries, started gigantic projects on an international scale and started to get a name in my favorite subject as well, so much that I actually can earn money in the subject in question. I have had five jobs, and started my own company.

I am still struggling with Japanese, even though I’m better than before. I still like role-playing games even though the frequency and my passion for it has gone down. I still like anime and related stuff, and my love for Japan is larger than ever before. And I’m still a glutton that eats more than what’s healthy (when I can afford it) not to mention I still love Spaghetti and Meatballs. And I still hold the people I love in the highest regards, and have even taken it further. Not by choice, but my feelings are very deep and I get physically hurt by being sad or wounded by the few friends I actually regard higher than myself.

But my passion for games, japan and youths are still strong. Even though a lot has changed I am still the kindhearted manboy that wants to make everyday the best for the youths out there through games and other methods!

That’s it for this time, maybe I’ll post something before I close down the blog. I have a date in which I will actually dismantle everything in my life. The deadline for everything is 2026-12-31. By that time I plan to erase this blog as well as everything else I can find on the internet. Hopefully I’ve achieved my goals ’til then.

Best regards,
Herid Fel aka Oskar Vikström

PS. Oh yeah, even thou I still identify more as Herid than Oskar, I’m more comfortable with Oskar than before. The duality of my personality still is there but not as present. But being in so many official functions where my “real” name needs to be present has made me more comfortable with that. But I will still refer to myself as Herid on this blog thou. .DS

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1. Or makes up tales or interpretations that are absurd ↩

2. Not their choice, but their action destroyed my love for writing ↩