Ramble VI

And the last post for today (tonight) then. Something more current and with some news… of some kind for those interested in my life or something similar to that…

After the session yesterday Robert contacted me about trying to play RPG again. We talked about this when I was trying to relax a bit between PB’s and Ankan’s sessions and he seemed fairly interested but in his usual way with this “not sure” and “dunno” thing as always. Then he texted me, well actually called me first about three times, about taking a look at some options today and so we did.

It have been quite a while since we last saw each other, I’ve only been to Foppa about twice or the most three times since they stopped playing RPG. Well, Robert hadn’t changed much, which was relieving in its way but Rasmus had grown pretty much. Rasmus have always been the one of the two always growing, physically, faster and earlier than Robert, but then again if I don’t misremember the Forsbergs have all been kind of late bloomers.

However they decided to try DnD and DoD, it seems like they wanted just to “try” first before making any final decisions. I must say that starting to read the Players Handbook reminded me of why I hated DnD so much… I’d almost started to believe it was only prejudice forced upon me by this anti-mainstream era I seemed to have caught around my early days when almost nothing served my purposes. But well, it wasn’t.

However even though this character making process is really messy and if you ask me not too well organized and that I didn’t know everything I think we had a pretty good time anyways. It was fun at least to see them both again even though I have a vague feeling that this won’t last. It’s kind of the feeling I got with Andreas when he was starting to stray “from the path” several years ago. The only difference now is that I care about Robert and I didn’t care about Andreas and therefore didn’t go all my way out to meet up with his criteria or needs.

If they want to play again I will probably try to adjust my style for them and with them trying simple (or simpler) role-playing games instead of something as intricate as Nianze that somehow is regarded as complicated just due to the lots of properties and the complicated process of making a character… but I wouldn’t want to agree on that actually when I think that it’s easier to get an understanding for the system than many other games where it’s too messy… like DnD. DoD on the other hand is quite like Nianze in many ways but the only thing is some minor things that you need to mod some things to make it flow better.

I will probably get rich this week. I will finally get to transfer my money from my founds to my account. The reasons for this are many. One thing, I need to take care of my debts once and for all or it will haunt me forever and I will need to… make matters disappear. And I really need to get my economy a little more stable and I do not trust in the founds to keep my money safe anymore.

There is a slim risk that I will become even more stingy than I am now, but I cannot understand how almost 120k could do that. It’s so much money that I wouldn’t get stingier, but only more… restrictive about how to spend some of it but even so spend it. I really need a new server and I really want to give Robert a good present for his 14th birthday.

Well, for now I’ve cancelled all sessions until I’m feeling healthy again. I am completely drained of power and need some lone time without spending all my time with puzzling over my notes or trying to figure out something I want to be not only clever but also somewhat new, with my touch so my story will be my own and really something at least a little bit different than everything else.

Well… for whatever it’s worth I was really glad to at least share my table with Robert again even if it was the last time this would happen. Now I think I will need to rest, even though it seems like my sleep is really strange. It seems like my body gets no rest and that my morning nausea is even worse than before, now with a headache and feeling light headed and having neck pains almost half the day…

Well, I guess this is my retribution.

Best regards,
Herid Fel