Ramble XXV

I don’t know why but lately it’s been a little bit harder to find anything to write about or rather find the energy to write about something. But well, I guess it’s due to all these changes.

I’m thinking that I’m doing too much and too little right now. It’s kind of weird but I have so much going right now and so much to do but somehow when I do things it ends with a total energy failure and I have to lie down for about a day or two. Well, this feels like total BS, but I guess that’s what happens when you’re me sometimes.

I’ve now been without energy drinks since Tuesday, I think, and my health is better. Even tough I feel so fucking tired all the time. Not really tired but like… exhausted, but for no reason. I mean I’ve almost done nothing the past weeks other than feeling bad, and watching movies and rest and just do the minimum of what I needed to do.

I must say, I think I’m in a period when I despise people more than usual right now. I have a hard time believing in people and mostly just thinking bad things about everyone. Not really having faith in others and mostly get annoyed over every little thing. But that might be a side effect of me being so tiered all the time too.

But even so I don’t know. I just dislike most people, I guess. Heh, this really is a ramble right now. It feels… so funny the texts I write for the moment. No good flow or something, and silly too.

I’m running out of food. Especially breakfast food. I think I’ll resupply my food storage tomorrow, with god knows what money, and maybe this fucking feeling of moving through clouds will dissipate.

Best regards,
Herid Fel