Ramble XIX

If I had the power to write a long post, I would write a long post about Demonic Lineage and being deaf and blind and jada jada jada, but I don’t have the power to write a long post so I won’t write a long post with the power I have but a short post with the power I don’t have…

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To sum up what I’ve been thinking to write about for you who cares about RPG and such silly stuff it’s about how experimental stuff will be and what you can and cannot expect and so on and on. I seem to just ramble on for like ages in most of my posts about RPG. Just look at A Fierce Country, dangerous shit I tell ya!

Been with my sister all day long today. Or at least most of the day. Wonderful day, beautiful day, a good day and so on. I really look forward spending the weekend with her, let’s see how this gets, it might be interesting.

It seems like Drak and I are posting on each others blogs now. Well that’s good. Then I don’t need to write something every day =P. I can always rely on Drak to write or post something that at least is something interesting for someone =). I must say I really like his protected posts, hehe… I hope I see more of those in the future.

I really need to clean up some discreet mess which I haven’t had time to do the last weeks and when I had the time the past few days I’ve neglected it since I’ve been all out of power. Well tomorrow I’ll do it. Maybe.

I thought something yesterday when I was going to bed… yeah I’ve been cutting down again on my sleep. I don’t know why just feel fully rested after a while now but I have a hard time (to be me) getting to sleep. Takes about fifteen minutes or so. However, as usual as when I’m going to bed I think up all these topics I would have written about. Such as how I sometimes feel like everything is like perfect, this is an illusion I even know that when being delusional.

My life isn’t perfect, and I still slack on some things. I don’t do this I don’t do that and I loose this and that everyday. And yeah, it’s interesting about my urges too. Me and my sister discussed this today and she somehow seems to have those too. But maybe not the same maybe the same. Doesn’t matter really but an interesting thought appeared; maybe it’s in my genes? That would be an interesting trait.

Yeah that brings back another thought. I remember that a while ago I was delusional again (well I was in pain then my fantasies tend to get really strong and I believe this and that for about a minute or two) and I somehow were really sure that everything in our psyche is set by the effects in our lives.

That might be true it might not but somehow I don’t believe this usually. This is a thought Foppa, or some other crazy guy who believes in various strange theories about free will, would have thought.

But this isn’t about will. It’s about how you become as a person is easy to deduct just by having most of the factors in your life. But what I thought is, are we privileged to feel and react like that because of the situation or is it really like that. If you had this and that then you will probably be like this or that?

Oh the thread! The thread of line of red. Or whatever to call it. This is jumble, yes it is. Nothing to concern yourself about. Yeah I’m level 60 now! EQ of course. And you will al be dead by morning.

I wonder how this post will would seem for you/me later/now or never?

Best regards,
Herid Fel