Yet Another Babble

Here we go again… trying to write down a couple of sentences just to let it all out or something. Well, the blog works as a relief sometimes a way to just let things out even though nobody understands, listens¹ or cares. Well, where to begin today then? Hmm…

Well… today I’m really, really tiered of my constant hunger… and not just because of economical reasons, it’s actually really annoying. I eat something, and then about two minutes later I’m hungry again. There’re several different things it could be if we were talking about a disease or something like that. It’s a shame that I’m not a believer in those kinds of things; I am a perfectly healthy young human… almost. So why would I have a dozens of different symptoms’ for many things? Either way, I’ve decided to do a check-up. It’s been about two or three years since I last went to a real check-up so I guess it’s time now when so many things are bothering me.

I’ve been thinking through my plans for the future the last week or so and I’ve starting to readjust some of them. The only thing I know for sure right now is that I will study some free courses on the university this fall and after that go to Japan. Here is an if that I’ll decide later when it’s closing in and that is if I’m going to stay there for one to three months or if I’m going to move over there for a year. If I move over there, I will sell this apartment and I cannot guarantee that I will return here when I get back.

If I just choose to go there for a couple of months I will most likely come back here and then see what my life has to offer then and what I feel like before I make any other decisions. Because, after that I have so many options but all of them depends on my feelings, emotions, thoughts and relations. However, for the moment I will concentrate on what I have here; trying to find both the financial as well as the reasons for both my causes.

And now for some general news… I’ve been watching/playing/reading a lot of movies/games/articles for my research in medieval society, both fictional as well as real, in many areas. Politics, behaviours, beliefs and so on… and I found out quite a great deal about things that is needed to enhance and divide in the societies of Nianze. But still note that any changes I make is very hard to actually notice in this last epoch when I need to work backwards. Anyway, most of the things I come up with… is unfortunately restricting your freedom of character personality, background and behaviourism. And yes, I want it more real, even though it’s a fantasy it shall be closer to reality than some of you want… the only thing that won’t be as close to reality as the rest… is physics. The laws of physics WILL work very differently in Nianze. This… making it harder for you to think in your boring ways.

Best regards,
Herid Fel

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