Isolation

If you isolate me from people and have me do things all by my self for a while I tend to change a bit, or recharge or something. I have noticed this for quite a while actually and I think it’s very… interesting how I regress and become more controlled by being alone. It also reminds me of the fact that I’m actually a loner who likes to do things by myself, with myself. This is something one could easily forget when spending about 150 hours during one month to play role-playing games, considering that role-playing games actually requires a lot of social contact.

Yes, this is indeed strange but we all know how it makes sense anyway so then it’s no mystery at all. Well, today I’ve actually played with Ankan. It went fairly well even though things are quite painful for his character right now. Well, Yurin is a really tough place to live in and believe it or not… it will soon get even worse. But well, you’ll all see what will happen soon. The only hint I’ll give you is that the world is coming to a boiling point soon and as soon as all the ingredients are in the pot the chaos will be set free…

Isolation have one other effect too, it actually harnesses my creativity. In the beginning it goes down, down, down… But after a while it goes skyrocket. At least if I try to keep my order around me and eat properly. Even though I have my emotional truths and think a lot on a lot still my brain is always thinking about two things whatever I’m doing. This is also why the progress never really stops, only slows down.

I easily get inspiration from almost nothing but the hard thing is not to get the inspiration but to transform it to a thing of my own. I want it to be realistic and logical in its own way but I also want it to fit in with my view of the world. Sometimes I have great energy and feel like I could easily create a whole village and play every one of them but sometimes I feel like it will be totally impossible for me to keep that up for even half a session. But well, it all depends on my energy levels.

Something that greatly annoys me is that even though I get forward things tend to still be in the same pattern. I need some new angles to some things so I can try to make the world more… different. Another things that actually destroys the mystique I’m trying to create is the worlds own awareness. I mean, the countries are too aware of each others and even though they don’t know everything about each other they still tend to know too much. I will try to change this.

In most fantasy stories and worlds you’re introduced to the feeling like; In the west the great magistrate lay and they are almighty powerful sages that are all-knowing and almighty. And over the great mountains lay the wasteland with horrible creatures and fiery mountains… This feeling is kind of hard to produce in Nianze because of two things. One; you players already know too much and most of you are totally incapable of empathy from the world’s aspect and two; the knowledge is to easy to get and to well spread in the world you live in. Even if I would limit the second¹ the first would be almost impossible to change when you all think to differently.

I mean, even though I’ve told you to think and decide for yourself people still ask too much questions about the situation. This is mostly referring to Forsberg’s inqueries about things that should be left to the mind of imagination instead of trying to make something logical. I will most likely make things even more illogical just to confuse and to prove to you that if you try to think too many things WILL go wrong, especially when it comes to the mysticum.

Well, tomorrow I’ll train around noon, Forsberg have obviously hurt himself, misjudging what he was capable of, so I’ll be training alone. If PB agrees to Foppa’s term we’ll most likely play during the evening otherwise I might try to spend some time with Foppa and Robert… I really miss that but well, maybe it will be so dull and stiff so I’ll cancel it but time will tell.

Best regards,
Herid Fel

1. Which the profiling already are trying to do ↩