Daily Report – Friday 9/5 – 08

Hello my dear readers!

I feel wonderful, yet different. I’ve been writing many things lately and hopefully I won’t stop. I need to improve my English and luckily I have people that are willing to correct my grammar. Tough the most important posts to be corrected are the ones with story-like character. Like the series I have going now about Nianze’s new history. Many of you may feel like so far it’s not to much difference from the old story you knew, but actually it is, it’s only that much in the history is exaggerated myths or just pure bullshit. Well, you that are concerned about this, my players, will have a closer description of the big real changes when we play your first single-sessions. However, this post isn’t about role-playing games but about just what I want to write for the moment, I will later write and post the third chapter in the series.

I am in a wonderful mood, even though much of what I see, I see very differently compared to before my trip. Before my trip I seldom went out, one of the reasons were because of the snow and cold which I don’t like and the other reasons was that I didn’t feel like it. But after the winter examination my needs to move around and just be going all the time have become stronger. And after always being on the move in Japan it’s stronger than ever before, the need to move. So since I got home I’ve been taking strolls or taking my bicycle just to move around a little to get some exercise as well as to move around a little to make my blood flowing. My hunger is as big as before and my thoughts are in motion as always, but in a slightly different pattern than before. My need for music have become stronger too, most likely because of the lack of music in everyday life during Japan, except for the concert and the little music Danielle played I didn’t have any music stimulating me except for the last few days.

Today I’ve been to my sister, by bicycle¹, to try to help her get her internet going. For some reason it had stopped working awhile ago so she called me Wednesday and asked for help. I really wished to see my little sister so why not, I managed to get some time today to see her so I got there and tried to fix the problem. It was fun to talk to her again and to hear her pessimistic comments about her own life all the time and her way of trashing everything. Actually we have most of that in common, the only difference is that she does it all the time, I mostly think of it and are more pessimistic about things concerning me. When I just talk to entertain, like I do during the Anime Conventions or around friends sometimes, I almost always act with exaggerations and sarcasm instead of pessimism due to that’s generally more appreciated than negative things.

But well, needless to say, it felt really nice to see her again after all this time. But then again she is one of the two most precious people to me in the whole world. I’ve already seen the other one… However I couldn’t fix her problem, the problem actually was that their internet seemed to be shut off. The reason that some in their big apartment still had internet was due to the reason that they were leeching the wireless internet access from their neighbour. This of course made her angry, just generally not at me. This is one thing that I really like about my sister. When she gets angry, she really gets angry. She acts on her anger and express it in one way or another. And the impulses she don’t want to face the consequences of she repress but she don’t hide the fact that she gets mad as most people do with faint smiles and shallow comments like “I’m not mad…”. That thing we have in common too, that when we get angry or mad we act on that impulse and that we get violent. But well, most people get violent in some degree when they get mad. The difference between us though, is that she gets angry pretty quickly while I actually take a while before I even get upset.

However we had a good time even though I was there for barely an hour. She was going to work later but for the moment she was just resting. She had got a new job too, on a restaurant as a waitress. She didn’t think that it was anything that suited her when they demanded a certain way of acting, dressing and such things due to the class of the restaurant but its money anyway. Well after a while I bid her farewell and bicycled back home. This is where I noticed how small Luleå suddenly feels. It’s like only one small street and you can walk everywhere. And it feels like its empty too, no crowd at all… not compared to Japan at least.

Well, doesn’t matter really but I also feel like if not anything radical happens I will go back to my old style of living. I will live with RPG as my main “work” and I will also do other things to prepare to go on. Sooner or later I will lose the reason here if not some things work out as I want them too. If my old plans here in Luleå doesn’t work out then I will most likely move for Japan or at least somewhere else to try to start over again. But as I’ve started now, I will probably put down more than twice the energy on RPG now than before. But I will also start with some other things, this will take most of my time therefore I might have to reprioritize school.

Well, I shall now start on the third chapter then play with Foppa before I’ll go to visit some classmates that have their birthday today. Well, see you all.

Yeah, one last RPG-note. If you post something on a History-lesson that’s over, post it as a note. With this I mean something like;

*A paper thorn out from a text book with some scribbling is nailed to the old notice-board*

Magister,

I just wondered if you’ve seen the gods?

Berit

I think you understand.

Best regards,
Herid Fel

1. I don’t think that I’ll use the bus in a while… ↩