Taking a day off…

Well, what to say really? I’m simply taking it easy for a bit today, even thou I actually have many, many things that need to be done. But sometimes you just need to put everything aside to get some rest so one has the energy to complete the tasks that lies before us.

I don’t get this with sleep. It’s really, really annoying. You get tired, you go to sleep and just when you fell asleep it feels pretty ok, but then you get bored by sleeping but you somehow manages trough the night and then when you wake up you feel all slow and heavy. It’s not comfortable, and the longer you sleep the worse it gets. You may even have a light headache if you are really unlucky. The only good thing out of this is that your body regenerates and is fit for yet another day and that you get some time to do some quality thinking. Otherwise I really can’t enjoy sleep; it was more enjoyable when sleeping with someone. If you wake up, you can just watch and admire the one next to you and feel the heartbeat and take in every little smell from her.
A couple of year ago I used to say this; Sleep=Annoying=Evil and I still stand by that…

Then we have food. Food is a tricky part of life. Your body needs a lot of energy, and a lot of different energy. So if you just eat, without thinking about what you need, you end up having to much of something and almost completely lack something else. But now the body is such a wonderful device so it can sometimes transform some things into other things with help of enzymes and other cool stuff… But not everything, and that’s why you easily can get in trouble if you eat one-sided. In the beginning the body can compensate a little, but in the end you have a huge lack of something that leads to the body metabolism becoming unbalanced… This may cause various effects, like you stop growing, headaches, underdevelopment and overdevelopment and so on…
Still, food is good even thou it’s hard to vary ones meal so it contains the most important stuff and still are delicious. Food=Enjoyable=Good.

Well, Robert called today. I really like it when he calls. It’s funny to hear him talk, if he talks at all. And his way of discussing things over the phone is a little bit clumsy, and avoiding. One thing I’ve noticed now lately is that he seldom addresses me by name. He just talks, he may talk about me and mention my name, but most of the time he just starts talking with me and assuming I’m listening, even thou it’s more around. Heh, this doesn’t necessarily means I’m the only one, but I’m the only one I can be sure about. However, he was sick today and bored, as usual, so I promised to swing by later.

About RPG, it seems like we won’t be able to play anything before Thursday. Actually I shouldn’t play RPG at all this week… I really need to finish that report. But well, I probably will throw in one or two short sessions this week before the great Banquet.

I’ve been watching lot of anime today when I’ve been taking it easy, and thought over some others. Baccano!’s end were pretty good thou it didn’t really felt like a good closure. I wrote about Gundam 00 earlier today, and I think that I’ve decided to finish SEED alongside with 00. The fact that 00 is releasing just once a week, at most, will probably mean that I will get much time for SEED and hopefully I can separate them.

Well, after some food and anime I walked to Forsbergs. Took only 15 minutes, I think that’s my record. I was in deep thought so that’s why I walked so fast. When I’m walking and thinking I tend to raise my speed to a very high speed, my natural tempo. Which is pretty fast for walking, if you ask some. Still, it usually takes about 20 min to go to Forsbergs usually. Well, I got a lot on my mind.

At Forsbergs I just talked and relaxed for about three hours. Robert was in a pretty good mood, but when his parents come home they thought that he should rest instead of running around fooling with us. That was a little bit boring; it’s more fun with Robert around. So well, after a while when I got hungry I walked home again.
One thing that annoys me a little in their house is that they have an extremely high temperature there. And thick, bad air so you easily get dozy and slow. The cellar almost has some fresh air, but it’s to cold on the floor so ones feet is freezing. Luckily for me I’ve a pair of slippers over there but I forgot them today…

Heh, it’s hard to determine who is looking forward to Robert’s birthday the most; me or Robert. Robert is talking about it pretty much, and I just want to know what Robert thinks about my present. When it comes to Robert it may be pretty normal to look forward for your birthdays at that age, but I myself stopped caring in fifth-sixth grade. They became annoying and the only fun part was if you invited relatives I liked for dinner. And well, all my birthdays from seventh grade to the first year in the gymnasium is filled with quarrels between me and my mother…
But well, Robert and Forsberg have a wonderful family, and as far as I can understand a pretty good relationship with their parents too. Just the usual stuff and to add to all, Robert is still a kid in his thinking as well as behavior. I wasn’t. In his age I was a really BAD kid, I’d tell ya’. So that’s maybe why he still likes birthdays… but what would I know?

I was thinking about some things while watching Anime. I like emotions and to put emotional thought into words. But every one of those I surround myself with and like, the few there is, can’t or won’t really understand any of this shit. Some can’t understand it because they are to distant from their own feelings and most of them don’t even want too either. They probably think its “emo stuff” or “ridiculous”. And some others are almost totally incapable to understand the meaning about it, and therefore ignore it completely. That’s a little sad I think. Feelings are wonderful, and if you keep them bottled up inside you end up being empty. Almost like a living corpse. Things you do don’t matter so much and you don’t really know what you want, or why you want it. Strong emotions are the only thing you feel, and when you do something that brings up a feeling you don’t really feel it but just act on it, but can’t explain it. Like why you like that or something like that. Life becomes so empty. To be able to feel love, affection, hate, regret and such things makes it much funnier to live. It’s a pity thou that almost everyone in my circle of friends is bottling up their feelings and becoming emotionless drones. I fear that for Robert too. It’s very common for boys his age to put away their feelings…

Well, that’s all for today. Tomorrow I must go shop some things and cook some raspberry syrup. I don’t must… but I will.

Peace out!

Best regards,
Herid Fel