Wednesday 18/7

Well, today was… relaxing.

In some ways it was pretty annoying to.
Well, anyone would think it’s annoying to listen to old people plus a mother talking about what others think and do about some almost family matter.

I don’t really care about the stuff, but it’s so tiresome to hear all the badmouthing and see all the acting they put up just to be “nice”, so stereotypical.

Well, otherwise the trip to Grandma was relaxing and most appreciated. I had time to think and to slow down for a while and my creativity worked a little and I made some minor changes to Nianze.

I also thought about maybe I would go there a weekend to relax and think a little to be on my own for a while and gather some new energy to deal with all stuff here. It would be nice, with that great air, the forrest and so on…

The only thing I would miss would be internet. But if I go down to the village they have broadband so maybe I would manage. It’s only about 4-5 kilometers down to the village below the mountain that Grandma lives on.

Well, Daniel has a visitor, or maybe I should say that Grahn’s apartment, which Daniel lives in during his vacation, has gotten another guest from Jokkmokk. His name is Simon Berg(lund?) and I have called him the Jokkmokk’s duck because he have similar behavior and personality like our Duck. He and Daniel came and visited me around 2200 to show Simon where Daniel might be if Simon would need the key to the apartment.
By the way, he’s here to work for a couple of days.

I’m going mad on these pimple attacks. They just keep coming and trying to be clean is just making it worse. I sometimes want to just carve away the skin they have occupied and throw it away. But unfortunate it doesn’t work that way. One thing that would work is to try my skin a little, with sunbathing, but I’m not good at laying still in the sun doing nothing. So well, I’ll have to live with it.

There are two things on my mind constantly for the moment. And both of them have a choice. The choice to wait or act and to do or not to do and here is a riddle. If I answer one with a negative answer, the answer to the second still needs to be made. If I answer both with a positive answer, it would collide with each other If I answer both with a negative answer I still need to make a decision on both questions either I want it or not…

The clock actually is 02:38 at the moment (I changed the time to 00:00 on 18/7 just to made it fit better) and I’m thinking about maybe to take my bike to Shell to disturb PB, but well, it may be many people out this eve and I don’t want to go somewhere just to say hi and bye because I don’t want some annoying persons to annoy me all the time. So maybe I’ll stay home and watch anime or something…

Best regards,
Herid Fel