About me III (200830)
Most people finding this blog I’ll assume know me. But today it’s actually not unlikely that you barely know me so let me introduce myself as I am now.
My name is Oskar Vikström and I am now a man of thirty something years. I am adopted from Brazil but I relate more to Sweden and Japan than to any other country in the world. I don’t really feel a nationality per se, but if I were to claim anything I would call myself Swedish, but definitely not Brazilian, I unfortunately dislike most things about that country.
I am quite a strange and in some aspect different kind of person and I’ve come to accept I’m not the baseline for normal. I defined myself as radical when I was younger but I would just say that my personality today is unashamed and brash. Ten years ago this was not a problem but today, and especially in Sweden, you need to temper your opinions since everyone has opinions about stuff and are ready to lynch people who aren’t political correct.
I do not care about political correctness. The society is forcing people to behave, think and in some extent feel in certain ways and today it’s just become a more assertive process in which you’ll get loud screams from people unless you adapt to this. I just try to avoid it all since I have no interest in participating in either side of the opinions. I find both sides of the arguments overly exaggerated and I find it also overly complicated how everything should adapt to this. So I’ll just try to avoid it all in all. So this is the last I’ll say about that.
Two topics I despise and also try to avoid, related to this, is Politics and Religion. I use it in role-playing games and books and such, but when it comes to the reality I avoid it. I don’t believe a word anyone claiming to be politically active says and I don’t care either way. The world is corrupt and politics is the same. It is unavoidable. Just don’t ask me to come with opinions in this matter. And if you can’t stand a person not wanting to be part of politics, well, I’m sorry to see you go. Religion is the same thing. I do not consider myself religious and I do not believe in a god or anything above me other than forces such as gravity, and such. So if I would call anything I believe religious it would be that I believe in physics and that the universe has logical forces and rules that governs existence. Everything else is not for me.
So my only opinion about these two topics is as follows: Most of all religious/political people cannot discuss and present their ideas in such a way that they make sense to everyone. It’s often very aggressive and one-sided arguments with the express goal of converting or forcing the other party to yield to their own side. They have a lot of emotions in what they say and believe which often leads to mostly a battle of who can make the other one look most stupid and loose their temper. Everybody lies1 just to make themselves look right. And even those more sensible than this, only knows a limited amount of information in their topic and haven’t truly learned about everything from every possible side. Because you always have ulterior motive to make your party/religion be the best. I despise this behavior and I have no interest in discussing it either since I have no possibility of bringing anything positive to that cesspool of possible conflicts and bad emotional outbreaks.
SO, who am I now? What has changed since the last update 2008-03-29, TWELVE years ago?
Short answer, a shit ton! It is too much to put into just this segment but I will try to condense this.
I am more calculated, slower to react and less passionate about my opinions than before. I am more private and also more experienced than before. I’ve been through one devastating relationship that forced me to stop with the blog2 and almost stopped role-playing completely. I’ve had four girlfriends, been to Japan a total of ten times, met a lot of new people, and met my three new favorite people in the world, Philipp Kuinke, Anton Linbäck and Carl-Philip Riggo Andersson. I now am a board game geek of epic proportions and have even started a failed enterprise within this new favorite subject as well.
I’ve been homeless, moved three times, gotten cats, had three cars, been to three new countries, started gigantic projects on an international scale and started to get a name in my favorite subject as well, so much that I actually can earn money in the subject in question. I have had five jobs, and started my own company.
I am still struggling with Japanese, even though I’m better than before. I still like role-playing games even though the frequency and my passion for it has gone down. I still like anime and related stuff, and my love for Japan is larger than ever before. And I’m still a glutton that eats more than what’s healthy (when I can afford it) not to mention I still love Spaghetti and Meatballs. And I still hold the people I love in the highest regards, and have even taken it further. Not by choice, but my feelings are very deep and I get physically hurt by being sad or wounded by the few friends I actually regard higher than myself.
But my passion for games, japan and youths are still strong. Even though a lot has changed I am still the kindhearted manboy that wants to make everyday the best for the youths out there through games and other methods!
That’s it for this time, maybe I’ll post something before I close down the blog. I have a date in which I will actually dismantle everything in my life. The deadline for everything is 2026-12-31. By that time I plan to erase this blog as well as everything else I can find on the internet. Hopefully I’ve achieved my goals ’til then.
Best regards, Herid Fel aka Oskar Vikström
PS. Oh yeah, even thou I still identify more as Herid than Oskar, I’m more comfortable with Oskar than before. The duality of my personality still is there but not as present. But being in so many official functions where my “real” name needs to be present has made me more comfortable with that. But I will still refer to myself as Herid on this blog thou. .DS
About me II (080329)
It’s about time I updated my profile a little. If nothing else, just to change my picture. I have just had a haircut, my Mother paid me 5500 SEK to cut my hair short due to my trip to Japan. She’s afraid that I’ll get stopped by the police or something for my odd appearance.
Well, at first I refused, of course you couldn’t just take an offer like that without thinking it through, and after some negotiations I decided to let it go trough. Well, I need some change anyway and the amount of hair she wanted to cut will grow out before the end of the summer anyway. And with five grand more in my pocket it will be easier with my aftermath economy when I get back, so well…
More about me right now, right here then. For those who have been on this site for a while you know by know that I have my flaws as well as my strengths. One of my greatest flaws AND strength is my obsessivity with order. So when a day is vacant in the calendar I tend to post on it anyway sooner or later. This is just because I don’t like to have inconsistency and want a post on each day. I know it’s kind of childish but I don’t care. I like it that way and if I resist my own urges things will go bad.
Anyhow, one other thing you should have noticed about me is that I like role-playing games and than I’m a very creative person that spend much of my waken time with this. This may change in the future but right now it’s my main hobby and one of the biggest things in my life. Many posts on the site are directly or indirectly related to my players in my group or about the game sessions in general. Some posts, like my updateish posts, are informative posts so I can get more feedback on my RPG and have it written down so I can go back to it and see how I thought when I answered a question and so on. This thou, some of my players don’t understand at all. They just think that me wanting comments is just that I want the illusion that I have readers… which is wrong. I want to see what I said and trace my own thinking and not need to reinvent the wheel all over again.
One other thing than many must have noticed is that I’m very fond of feelings and hold my feelings and my thoughts about the few I like very dear. Even thou some of them do not understand a thing about what I’m talking about while others tries their hardest to understand, that’s the fact. My feelings and my development around me is more important than role-playing and my life is mostly about my feelings for others and the world around me. When I feel I don’t have anything more to gain here, or feel like what I do here is wasted time and energy, I will move on.
I am an hedonist of some sort, also called Epicurus3 , which in short is a person who values his lust, impulses and will above anything else. I don’t care about those outside my “garden” which in this case means those that aren’t directly affecting me. They also think that one’s own desires should go first. To one extent…
However… this were a little update about me.
Best regards,
Herid Fel
About me I
Where to begin… I’ll try to keep it brief.
I’m a Brazilian boy (or man) of twenty that currently lives in Sweden. I’ve lived here all my life and will probably live here for the rest of my days.
I was adopted by the age of four together with my younger sister. We have been raised by a Swedish couple that I call my parents.
I’m quite a radical person. And my behavior can seem inappropriate or rude. I often voice my opinions if it’s anything for me to win from it, and I like to manipulate people for my own personal gain.
My appearance is quite radical too; I have a big hair (some call it afro) and light brown skin that has been without the sun of my homeland for ages, which has made it look almost grey-brown instead of light-brown.
If you are on this site you probably know me, or want to know more about me, and by coming here, you may be able to read more about me in my future posts.
I hope you enjoy this site and give me feedback, otherwise I don’t know if I’ll write to much in this Blog.
Best regards,
Herid Fel
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